Today I’ve taken the next step into becoming less stressed about great things: important conversations, a presentation, a certain appearance.
To me, nothing was more stressful than an important conversation, a presentation, or a meet-up with someone I admire.
Last years I have learnt that this all is nothing to be afraid of and that softens the emotions. Consciously, but it does.
I have worked on my inner compass for ’things’. Feeling OK with whatever I feel and say, because my compass sais so.
But still, sometimes the situation controls the narrative. I get scared. I feel the nerves, heartbeat goes up, I start sweating. When I get stressed out, I fall back to old habits.
Scared of what other people think, and what the effect then is. Uhh. Because of what I think about what other people think.
Today I have learnt that the narrative is controlled by your own imagination.
“When there is no enemy within, the enemy outside can do you no harm.” An African proverb goes.
I had the insight that when I’m getting scared, it helps me to dive deep into what I find not good about what’s happening. Because I get scared and stressed of myself (!).
When I get stressed, it’s probably for something I’m insecure about. And that’s an easy find, and moreover the start of resolving this stressful moment.
Today, I figured out that it wasn’t the customer that found this situation awkward and vague, but I did. I was really hard on myself.
Connecting the dots made me open for vulnerability towards myself, for acceptance and moreover: I hereafter was able to create a narrative that helped me make forward motion possible.